UFO Experiencer Feels So Alone

Posted: January 21, 200

Hi Brian..how are ya?.

I just wanted to drop you a note and tell you of my memories. This is all very strange and seemingly very new for me. I told you about that one time about a dream that wasn't a dream, because I never awoke from it. Yet it sits in the front of my mind as if it was a dream I just awoke from, you know, the men in black, the black car and the giant syringe. Awaking and thinking I am still in the car, because I can look down on the road and yet I was high above it. Well that, as it has been for years and is still with me.

I have a new dilemma. I like to relax and clear my mind, pretty much meditation. Not quite as strict as that would be, anyway just recently I have had these images, memories if you will, that seem to come around. At first I was just getting images of distorted faces, then everything started to get clear. The first time it happened I thought, wow, that would be the effects of TV( I barley watch it anyway..TV is not my thing ). These memories of these figures, they are not human and they are very small when put next to us as grown adults. Brian, I tell you, I really thought it was just my imagination, now I am not sure about anything, including my sanity. It really feels like I am slipping away from it when I think about these memories.

It was 2 nights ago, I was relaxing and the same thing happened, Brian it made me scared. I was in a place, now this all is weird but, I know it as the ship and it was not very bright inside. There was lights, but they were rather ambient in their intensity, the walls and floor were very smooth and flowing. There were no edges or corners, everything was smooth not rounded but flowing, no windows that I saw. I remember sitting on the floor, naked my arms around my legs and my face in my knees and covering my eyes, rocking back and forth trying to make it go away because I didn't want to look anymore. I didn't want to be there anymore. I didn't want them to touch me again.

They were there and doing stuff, 3 or 4 of them I don't know what they were doing. I didn't want to watch and I wanted out of this madness. But they were not concerned about me being there, they went on like I was nothing to worry about and doing other things, not paying attention to me. Brian my whole body began to tremble as this memory occurred and suddenly. I was scared, trembling scared and I began to have tears from the feelings. It certainly feels like the edge of insanity when the thoughts and feelings are at the front of my mind.

I am writing this to you because I know I wont be ridiculed or made fun of, or simply not believed. I guess I trust you the most out of every one that I know, strange as it is, seeing we have never met. But I thought I have to share this. Tell someone, anyone who will listen and believe me, you are the only one. I am not sure what is ahead, but after this memory, I don't really feel like I want to see these UFOs that I have been seeing. It now causes me to be apprehensive and scared of the thoughts of what's next if I do, that is not me, not at all.

That's all, I just need and ear. Thanks for being the ear for me and sorry for taking up your time..thanks Brain.

As it stands, I am off to the lake for Spring, Summer and Fall, pretty much my whole time there. I don't really have any doubt that I will see more oddities in the sky this year, they just appear and I certainly have never been looking for them, they just find me.

I hope you have a wonderful summer. I am packing right now getting ready for the lake I leave next week. If I encounter anything of the sort again, of course you will be the first to know.

I just wish I could talk to someone who has felt this too. Who knows what I mean, what I am feeling, how apprehensive I have become towards life, my sanity and the reality of our universe. But I feel alone, that there is no one else to talk to..blah blah. I will stop now. Take care Brain and thanks again.

HBCC UFO Research: Thank you to the person for sharing their thoughts. Due to the person leaving for holidays I will be making arrangements with others who are going through similar experiences, to have this person and others come together, if only by email to talk and discuss what has been happening. It is a start, and as this person put it, they feel alone not having anyone to talk to. So hopefully I can change this.

From reading this letter to me, it is really sad that people who are going through something like this do not have anyone to talk to. I can only imagine what they much feel like, alone and afraid of what has been happening and wondering what will be coming next.

Brian Vike, Director HBCC UFO Research. email: hbccufo@telus.net Website: http://www.hbccufo.org http://www.brianvike.com, http://www.hbccufo.com, http://www.hbccufo.net HBCC UFO Research International: http://www.hbccufointernational.org/

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